Being thin

I have always had a weight issue. Big, fat, whale...I have been called all these names and more. The sad thing about it is that the person usually calling me those names was me! I'm still having a hard time trying to get to a smaller size and it doesn't help when I love sugary sweets so much! I keep saying I'll cut back on the junk and exercise, but I never do! What happened to my motivation? It went right out the window with my relationship. Uggh. I'll lose weight...I just wish I knew when!